Hey guys! thanz for supporting my blog here.
but i have changed my blogging to be on my friendster!!
yeah!! liek that u can check up on my new pics, know my frenz and of cuz read my blog to know my life!!

my acct that has a blog is yuanqi87@pacific.net.sg
pls take note and continue supporting me!!

talked more trash @ 9:06 PM

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成长的代价非常高。我从来不知道欺骗，不坦诚，伤害别人，是多么内疚。
我也伤害了自己。

需要很大的勇气去面对别人的眼光，去面对自己所伤害的人。
我想改过。 这次是真的。我不要再活在黑暗里。

走出阴霾是不容易的。你要把自己提起来。重要的不是你这么跌倒，而是你怎么去面对，站起来。
追求永恒的快乐才是真正的快乐。

很多人逃避， 不敢去面对他们的错误。不敢去面对人生的起落。能逃多久呢？
把握自己的生命。 珍惜它。不要说要把记忆抹去。他们是人生的证据。

不管好坏，他们都已经写进我们人生的每一夜。不能檫掉。如果是坏的回忆，就从里面走出来。做个勇敢的战士。

我就是花了很长的时间来了解这一切。不会太迟。只要你肯改，人生还是有希望， 活下去。
或许很老套，却是金玉良言。是不会被时间更改的想法。

转出红尘间，捩转心路艰，点燃新起点。
有很多人等你站起来，若在读着的你，起来吧

talked more trash @ 10:52 PM

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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
I would give the very breath from my chest
To give you all the things my mind couldn't bear
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face, it haunts my once-pleasant dreams
And your voice have chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I'd love to walk away and pull myself out of the rain
But I can't leave without you
I'd love to live without the constant fear and endless doubt
But I can't live without you

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
Me, oh
Me, oh

talked more trash @ 7:12 PM

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It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you

talked more trash @ 3:41 PM

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why are u so busy body, Yuanqi? care abt ur own thing can le. u are jus making things more worst. finding something out of nothing to do!!

wad can i say now? i dun wish to say wad happen..but probably i think too much care too much and causes things ard me to change. i am a pple' person. wad to do? this is me..

why do i push myself into such a state? sorry.. i have revealed me once again..could be something disappointing when u see this..but i do feel in this way now..

yuanqi..care abt urself!

talked more trash @ 12:15 AM

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finally finished watching My Date with Vampire 3. been inspired in a lot of ways. they talk abt miracles, fate and love. yesterdae quite weird. after watching the last disc..i was like so full of analysis. talked to pple abt love and finally talk abt my emotions. talked to different pple abt self-identity. duno wad happen to me too.. jus talking nonsense. still the same old me. din wanna bother pple much with my stuff.

its been few daes le ba. we decided to leave each other alone for a while. it would do us good to recover. im sorry if im selfish. but i think we both nid time. i want to return the vcd asap as it would leave a scar to my memory.

time will heal all they say..true to an extent. wad it matters is the will power to move on in life. i found my way thru many valleys and wilderness. like the the children of Israel.. like cg. we had a pm yesterdae. was kinda of good and fruitful. it challenged them to pray more and be fervent. and we have 15 frenz!! i am so happy. praying that they wont back out.

anyway..back to the topic. after watching the show.. i realized the nid to of paradise. paradise is actually a place where pple imagine or think of. so that they can run to when the real world seems to pull them down. but is good sometimes. to be in our own fantasy. paradise. where we think and do with no limit. sometimes we jus nid to free up the real us. and soon after, we have to come back to the real world and face the states of the world. probably, paradise- this fantasy is our source of strength.

the term is coming to an end. and really God used my this term so fruitful. i had learnt so much in life. and wad it means to give in ur all. and how love changes all things. love frm love ones, frenz,family and many more. maybe love is the key to unlock paradise.

where is paradise? i would say is in our heart. when we show love, paradise will be formed.chim? i dun think so. jus show more love to the pple ard u. many of us are too busy to love or even take pple that u loved for granted. cherish them. forever is nothing until u make a day to day commitment. do u understand?

many sec sch students fall in and out of love. trying to find the one in the many. for show off? for accompany? wad do we really know abt love? the answer could be only with the love of Christ 2000+ yrs ago. Easter is coming. it will remind us an important event on history that saved mankind..even till this very age. how many pple are blinded by treating Easter as a public holidae? the greatest love of all is ard u. are u cherishing?

talked more trash @ 10:44 AM

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i restarted my starting point..i may have disappointed or even hurt a lot of pple..i know sorry wont help. but my actions will. thank u for pouring so much love and care into my life. i will try to spread my wings to fly. it aint no easy. but i will try. and one day, i will bring ur to fly with me.

so many weeks of struggles have awaken me from my dream..at least i did dream. that is something it may not happen in my real life. grown up? broke free? i duno but i do believe i have. i still have many things no accomplish. but i nid to. is my duty in life. its my responsibility as i am given this life by my Creator.

i better be on my way to my dreams. all this side trax in my life has made me seen a lot. and realized that love changes all things. sometime we may apprehend but seeing it is believing it. at least i know 2000yrs ago..a greatest love has been done and given.

i can make it thru the rain. this is wad i believe and i am holding onto.

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talked more trash @ 1:01 PM

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