爱上爱

Change

2005-04-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! thanz for supporting my blog here.
but i have changed my blogging to be on my friendster!!
yeah!! liek that u can check up on my new pics, know my frenz and of cuz read my blog to know my life!!

my acct that has a blog is yuanqi87@pacific.net.sg
pls take note and continue supporting me!!

起点

2005-03-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

成长的代价非常高。我从来不知道欺骗，不坦诚，伤害别人，是多么内疚。
我也伤害了自己。

需要很大的勇气去面对别人的眼光，去面对自己所伤害的人。
我想改过。这次是真的。我不要再活在黑暗里。

走出阴霾是不容易的。你要把自己提起来。重要的不是你这么跌倒，而是你怎么去面对，站起来。
追求永恒的快乐才是真正的快乐。

很多人逃避，不敢去面对他们的错误。不敢去面对人生的起落。能逃多久呢？
把握自己的生命。珍惜它。不要说要把记忆抹去。他们是人生的证据。

不管好坏，他们都已经写进我们人生的每一夜。不能檫掉。如果是坏的回忆，就从里面走出来。做个勇敢的战士。

我就是花了很长的时间来了解这一切。不会太迟。只要你肯改，人生还是有希望，活下去。
或许很老套，却是金玉良言。是不会被时间更改的想法。

转出红尘间，捩转心路艰，点燃新起点。
有很多人等你站起来，若在读着的你，起来吧

thats wad im feeling now..it saves me from blogging..

2005-03-23T19:12:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
I would give the very breath from my chest
To give you all the things my mind couldn't bear
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face, it haunts my once-pleasant dreams
And your voice have chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I'd love to walk away and pull myself out of the rain
But I can't leave without you
I'd love to live without the constant fear and endless doubt
But I can't live without you

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
Me, oh
Me, oh

journey

2005-03-18T15:41:00.000+08:00

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you

caring is a fault too

2005-03-11T00:15:00.000+08:00

why are u so busy body, Yuanqi? care abt ur own thing can le. u are jus making things more worst. finding something out of nothing to do!!

wad can i say now? i dun wish to say wad happen..but probably i think too much care too much and causes things ard me to change. i am a pple' person. wad to do? this is me..

why do i push myself into such a state? sorry.. i have revealed me once again..could be something disappointing when u see this..but i do feel in this way now..

yuanqi..care abt urself!

Paradise- A Source of Strength, and Love is the Key

2005-03-10T10:44:00.000+08:00

finally finished watching My Date with Vampire 3. been inspired in a lot of ways. they talk abt miracles, fate and love. yesterdae quite weird. after watching the last disc..i was like so full of analysis. talked to pple abt love and finally talk abt my emotions. talked to different pple abt self-identity. duno wad happen to me too.. jus talking nonsense. still the same old me. din wanna bother pple much with my stuff.

its been few daes le ba. we decided to leave each other alone for a while. it would do us good to recover. im sorry if im selfish. but i think we both nid time. i want to return the vcd asap as it would leave a scar to my memory.

time will heal all they say..true to an extent. wad it matters is the will power to move on in life. i found my way thru many valleys and wilderness. like the the children of Israel.. like cg. we had a pm yesterdae. was kinda of good and fruitful. it challenged them to pray more and be fervent. and we have 15 frenz!! i am so happy. praying that they wont back out.

anyway..back to the topic. after watching the show.. i realized the nid to of paradise. paradise is actually a place where pple imagine or think of. so that they can run to when the real world seems to pull them down. but is good sometimes. to be in our own fantasy. paradise. where we think and do with no limit. sometimes we jus nid to free up the real us. and soon after, we have to come back to the real world and face the states of the world. probably, paradise- this fantasy is our source of strength.

the term is coming to an end. and really God used my this term so fruitful. i had learnt so much in life. and wad it means to give in ur all. and how love changes all things. love frm love ones, frenz,family and many more. maybe love is the key to unlock paradise.

where is paradise? i would say is in our heart. when we show love, paradise will be formed.chim? i dun think so. jus show more love to the pple ard u. many of us are too busy to love or even take pple that u loved for granted. cherish them. forever is nothing until u make a day to day commitment. do u understand?

many sec sch students fall in and out of love. trying to find the one in the many. for show off? for accompany? wad do we really know abt love? the answer could be only with the love of Christ 2000+ yrs ago. Easter is coming. it will remind us an important event on history that saved mankind..even till this very age. how many pple are blinded by treating Easter as a public holidae? the greatest love of all is ard u. are u cherishing?

Starting point

2005-03-08T13:01:00.000+08:00

i restarted my starting point..i may have disappointed or even hurt a lot of pple..i know sorry wont help. but my actions will. thank u for pouring so much love and care into my life. i will try to spread my wings to fly. it aint no easy. but i will try. and one day, i will bring ur to fly with me.

so many weeks of struggles have awaken me from my dream..at least i did dream. that is something it may not happen in my real life. grown up? broke free? i duno but i do believe i have. i still have many things no accomplish. but i nid to. is my duty in life. its my responsibility as i am given this life by my Creator.

i better be on my way to my dreams. all this side trax in my life has made me seen a lot. and realized that love changes all things. sometime we may apprehend but seeing it is believing it. at least i know 2000yrs ago..a greatest love has been done and given.

i can make it thru the rain. this is wad i believe and i am holding onto.

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When you get caught in the rain, with nowhere to run
When you're distraught and in pain, without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is

[chorus]
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again, on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid, I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say

[chorus]

And when the wind blows
As shadows grow close, don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And sure they tell you, you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say, yeah

[chorus]

I can make it through the rain
And stand up once again
And I live one more day and night
And I can make it through the rain
(Oh yes you can)
You're gonna make it through the rain

wad a day

2005-02-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

todae is my birthdae. so of cuz inboxes were flooded with many msgs!! Thanx guys!! You all made up my life. todae was TTO presentation. all were nervous actually and we only did one dry run 15mins before.. haha..so the real thing start..it wasnt really very smooth.. can see from the stutter. Thanks to the Holy Spirit that led me to speak. the most challenging was the Q & A..where it was like a world war between us and the audience. however, they were quite merciful, though we were like fighting to answer and unsmooth, but i can see we are united to support one another..phew!~ over..

now is Kenny's grp turn. haha... so is like most xiong for them lo. too bad la..haha..can see that some of her grp members were pissed lo. haiyah...wad to do lehz? thank God again that i was voted the Best Presenter in my grp and i felt Fate was good too (no other intention of mentioning her name). At the end of whole thing..the whole klas sang Birthdae song for me !! thanz guys!! i love ya. wad was more shocking that Hao passed to me a present by him, jeekeng and mingshan.. a FOX shirt. my first FOX shirt!! Nice!!!

alright..went back home. watched Kongfu Hustle- bloody!! then slept.. and i overslept for jamming. quickly rushed down and they jus got started. thats good. todae i felt the grp was in its standard performance. suddenly, ben asked me out to speak to me something. till outside..he said he got noting to tell me and brought me back to the jamming studio, and when i stepped in, they sant Birthdae Song to me! i shld have know it. THANZ REVIVALUTIONIST!!!!!

but that wasnt all. they brought me to coffeeshop and the nightmare started there. they forced me to eat the cake and smashed me- not that bad. then they blindfolded me and brought me somewhere.i could peep but weiming covered me with chai huat pe shirt- YUCX!! finally after much walk, sat down and heard many noise of cup and spoon. i knew i had to drink something awful. and passer-bys walked beside me and asked if it was a kidnap. haha..i kept shouting for help for ambulance and police- joker!!!

the time came..i drank. i forced myself to drink..is super super erxin lehz (later knew it was coffee, soya sauce, milk,egg etc) GROSS!!!!! not jus that, i had to dance with Shang a romantic dance.. GAY!! haha..no la..it was all for a joke. but everything end off well with a wallet given to me! I love it lohz!! I love my birthday!! i love today!! but projects' shadow is haunting me. haix..nvm..throw them aside. my birthdae is a whole month festival!!!

so give me my presents ASAP!!!

My Birthday!!!

2005-02-25T01:41:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to ME!!! Im 18 le!! Yeah..adulthood here i come..hehe..well 18 light yrs have passed..it was jus a normal birthdae when pple wished me with no prezzie..sob sob..where are my prezzies?

haha..been choinging projects..which i dun really like.. and i still have two more projects haven start!! yuanqi..dun be lazy le..haix.. now super tired lo..wanna go sleep a while then wake up do work lo... can only sleep for 4hrs..is a blessing. pray that God wil mutiply my rest!! haha..

on my way to recover myself to the Lord.. been attending Ulf Ekman's conference. it is kinda of quiet..unlke last time where he would lay hands. but i somehow felt that it is not the hype or majestic of the ministry..but rather the reception of the Word of God thought it was peaceful procedure. but i really enjoyed it. Humility is simply Obedience and having that identity in God tat u do not have to work hard to prove urself to others.

wel..as i step into my new adulthood..i hope to grow stronger in God, more anointing,.. impacting more lives..and develop my singing talent..!! Yeah!!! 18!! thank u Lord for the 18th wonderful year!!!

i can see the sun..

2005-02-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

恐懼在黑暗之中蔓延

因為我們看不見

淚水從失去之中湧現

因為心已有殘缺

我一直認真的去學學如何用愛去解心裡的結

希望在陽光之中發現

因為我們看的見

笑容從感謝之中呈現

因為心被愛充填

我一直期待著明天

它總在黑夜的終點出現在窗前

I can see the sun

I can see the sun with love

我祈禱在每一個今天

都有一個夢想能實現

I can see the sun

I can see the sun with love

愛讓我的心裡面出現了晴天

如果渴望的幸福仍然不明顯我會帶著微笑繼續走向前

love love love

2005-02-19T11:11:00.000+08:00

要預防愛褪色的苦　先預購我要的幸福　保存　現在的溫度
約定你每一個週五　說好要找個渡假屋　關掉手機不再忙碌

雖然愛偶也會迷路　憑著直覺自創一張地圖　
期待的旅途我要刪掉所有愛的期限　用我的方式　四季都熱戀

快遞愛情　到你面前　打包好幸福的想念就算要　跨越地平線　我願冒險
快遞愛情　愛是PIZZA 限時專送　溫暖不減倒數計時　美好時間　就快和你見面

Hurry now don't wait for time to Pass U by Find a Way to keep the Sparks alive alive Hurry now don't let that Some Pass U by Make the Passion escalate

love

2005-02-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

i have experienced tastes of love these two wks..and found out that bitter stands out from the rest. ups and downs. i duno how to face it.. why aint tears flowing? shldnt it be? wont i feel better if i do?

holding on seems painful..but letting go seems too. wad is it? where is that me longs to be in love? i have forsake all to love..but left alone in the corner..love..why i cant figure u out?

all for u

2005-02-11T18:54:00.000+08:00

愛你等於擁有一片天空
任何風吹草動都有你存在其中
自然而然的輕鬆

一路到夏天的尾聲
我所謂到過於激動
我們有笑容我們曾心動
不再是無動於衷

無條件為你不顧明天的安穩
為你變堅強相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢問有一天壞的可能

無條件為你放棄單獨的旅程
為你堅強就不怕犧牲
我的靈魂如此沸騰為我愛的人

喜歡複雜還是習慣單純
我願盡力完成你在我心中幾分
難以形容的責任

愛一個人付出才會完整無條件越愛就越深永遠不分啊 . . . .

i am happy

2005-02-11T10:24:00.000+08:00

yeah.. its fridae..hmm.. fourth dae of new yr..collected a lot of hongbaos..so happy lo! not rich la..may nid to pay fone bill becuz of someone lo..if u reading this.. u better pay up for me!! :p

so excited..today going out at late nite..will have a great time out! wEeZ..long time dun have nite life le. fang xing..will not do those huai shi one..haha..eat a lot lehz..the past few daes..later fat fat.. face got more oil *scared off*

hmm..must go do project later..a bit sianx off lo..cuz got to come back in 2hrs time accompany my parents go Expo take tix for the Long Zhi Huan Ying circle show la..haha..then come back home rest a while..prepare for full dae nite out... wEez

CNY!!

2005-02-09T11:50:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY!! Yeah!! A new year has arrived!! Finally..so happy!!! i going to have a bear soon!haha..is a mystery!! But hohx..stil got assignments to do lo..

had reunion dinner then went out to meet bear!! hmm..kinda of fun but awkward..felt that very difficult to communicate..but is okae. thats the real me! got my red packet too. i am the only one in family eligible to get from my parents!! cuz my sister and bro are now working so they are giving my parents instead..

hmm.. wanna go dye my hair le..ash! but i scared later come home will kana be killed lo..hehe..sch also dun allow..i think still will play with gold. hope that the stylist will do nice nice..after CNY!!!

liars...

2005-02-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

i hav enuff le..i shld not have trust anybody..sorry guys..i let ur down..but i decide to go back to their foundation which i laid my life upon.. Trust Urself Only..

dun say sorry..it has been overdone in my life..its losing its effect and its original meaning..i will jus be satisfied with me alone.. only..and only

let go....

2005-02-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

我不要將你多綁住一秒

我也知道天空多美妙

請你替我瞧一瞧

天上的風箏哪兒去了一眨眼不見了

誰把它的線剪斷了你知不知道

從前的我們哪兒去了

路太遠我忘了

如果你想飛我明瞭你自由也好

我不要將你多綁住一秒

我也知道天空多美妙

請你替我瞧一瞧

看你穿越雲端飛的很高

站在山上的我大聲叫喔~

也許你呀不會聽到

把夢想找到要過得更好

我不要愛情的低潮

我會微笑眼淚不准掉

我很好後來的你好不好

你會知道我沒有走掉

回憶飛進風裡了

天上的風箏哪兒去了

haha

2005-02-05T19:01:00.000+08:00

sorry for not blogging for wks..haha..fell sick recently. man its new yr lo then fell sick- cough and flu!! bad..is keep running nose lo..mucus flowing..haha..gross right..coughing out phglem too.hehe

jus came back from project at steffi hse. her parents are so hospitable. cooked us food all those. but one thing bad..steffi, amelia and lavinia brought their steads along..then im like oh gosh..reunion lo..haha..i even suggested to them they can go on dates together on v.dae. haha..even julian, jeff and mingshan have stead lo..me too..soon..dun tell u..keep guessing!

watching HZGG 3 now and waiting for dinner..haha..pls take awae this flu..CNY is coming..gosh!

weee~~

2005-02-01T10:43:00.000+08:00

haix..haven been blogging the past few wks..sorry palz..dun really have those blogging mood..hmm. i changed my blogskin! nice? its kinda of simple but i like the overall image..hmm..sch has started again..its gonna get bz..hmm..gotta follow my goal setting plan. i must follow to make it a fruitful yr this 2005..

werent doing well the past one mth..but thank God for frenz like zengmin. i really wanna thank him cuz he always never fail to talk to me though i felt a bit vexed to be chased after. but he never stop caring for me. life has still got to go on no matter wad..

weee~~ while at least my birthdae is coming. i am so excited..hmmm 24 more days!! i hope to get many presents!! i went ard asking! i mst ask then i will recieve ma!! haha..thsoe reading this..u know wad to do ar!!!

train of life

2005-01-29T01:19:00.000+08:00

im not gonna blog wad is going on in my life..i feel is normal.. but i want to grow up and i nid to realize a truth is that Life is like a train..many aboard, many alight, many bring in a lot of things, many left with much too. But the train mus still go on to its destination.

i have been struggling over this and i hope i see the light..its a thin red line of locking urself up and growing up. i have to step the correct side. so pls dun make empty promises..i cant take it. but i jus nid to let go and let God

2005-01-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

沒想過我還能握著你的手還能和你一起走一起走你曾說過就算走到路的盡頭你還是堅持陪我陪著我去找一個開始就這樣也找到了最後不放手和你到最後
不管別人怎麼看我我只相信愛沒錯不要對我懷疑太多或去猜測我們的以後不怕再多冷眼看我我只相信愛沒錯不問結果是什麼永遠不算什麼永遠不算什麼只要是曾經愛過

You are not fading away....

2005-01-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

breakaway..thats wad im doing

2005-01-22T15:27:00.000+08:00

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But, when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget of the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Breakaway
Breakaway

fly~

2005-01-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

一頁一頁的心情　寫著當初的甜蜜

一個人的日記裡　回憶是我的氧氣

一步一步的前進　我漸漸離開過去

告訴自己不要緊　感受此刻的天氣(抬起頭大口呼吸)

練習著　無所謂的心情

我不會飛　但我慢慢的走　有點寂寞　但我努力的過需要時間　恢復傷口　快樂的事　一定還會有我不會飛　但我渴望天空　有一點風　但我並不想躲總有一天　給我時間　我會從思念裡自由

a lesson....

2005-01-20T23:23:00.000+08:00

生命第一課是流淚　我學會呼吸和感覺

從愛開始我學會喜悅　卻因為在乎學會膽怯

你對我說再見那天　我學會　愛的不完美

我在你缺席了的黑夜　學會怕黑

我正在了解　這世界　讓每天成為新的起點

我會　走向前　不讓自己再回到昨天愛過你才學會離別　

犯過錯才學會後悔哭過後才學會諒解　

我會學會　我的世界

失去你擁抱的甜美　我學會珍惜的可貴

當今天已經告別　我寫下日記　學會不輕易浪費

愛過你的那個我　已經學會去　翻越傷悲

忘記很辛苦但我知道這樣才對

我正在了解　這世界　讓自己成為每個起點

我會　走向前　不讓自己再回到昨天

被愛過才學會感謝　離開你才學會乾脆　

逆著風我學會起飛在我的世界　在我的世界　在我的世界　我學會

i know is Him...

2005-01-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

我讓自己驚訝那麼傻面對人生變化

真的快樂在哪兒都問啦總是沒有解答

當我遭遇困難關卡孤身在天涯

每當我心裡有話就告訴他告訴他所有擔心害怕所有憂慮牽掛我相信他一定有方法

就告訴他告訴他所以困惑掙扎所有渴望缺乏交給他他是溫柔光亮的燈塔

2005-01-18T01:16:00.000+08:00

我不知該說什麼好
你的來去一直都沒有預兆
這次是你帶著笑還是藏著刀
別那樣又用擁抱當酬勞
別那樣用玩笑當圈套
我只求一個人一點自尊和驕傲

我不知該做什麼好
這一切真的從沒有預兆
這次你又帶著笑而我只想逃
也許是你要的我不想要
也許是你要的我做不到
所以我一個人用空白填未來當作炫耀

沒有後悔沒有爭吵再也不要苦苦的計較
就算瘦了也沒什麼不好
話變少也很好
沒有淚水沒有煎熬
再也沒有人讓我吃不下睡不著
心碎了我還炫耀

受傷的字眼擱淺在唇邊不要你悱惻敷衍

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終於作了這個決定　
別人怎麼說我不理
只要你也一樣的肯定
我願意天涯海角都隨你去　我知道一切不容易
我的心一直溫習說服自己　最怕你忽然說要放棄

愛真的需要勇氣　來面對流言蜚語
只要你一個眼神肯定　我的愛就有意義
我們都需要勇氣　去相信會在一起
人潮擁擠我能感覺你　放在我手心裡　你的真心

如果我的堅強任性　會不小心傷害了你
你能不能溫柔提醒
我雖然心太急　更害怕錯過你

...

2005-01-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

等於結束的愛情　我和你　從兩個窗口看出去往事遠遠地　演著一場無聲的電影　沒人注意躲著回憶的生體　帶領我　和你的名字向前進作廢的曾經　留在離開你那天　揮不去因為太了解　所以很傷心　沒有你只好聽著風的呼吸卻有種叫做時間的東西　說沒問題　最後我們會痊癒因為太了解　我無法堅定　這一次會要掉眼淚的決定有些遺憾只能一個人聽　很對不起　我還是珍惜　所有的事情

raining in my heart

2005-01-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

我懷念有一年的夏天

一場大雨把你留在我身邊

我看著你那被淋濕的臉

還有一片樹葉貼在頭髮上面

那時我們被困在路邊

世界不過是一個小小屋簷

你說如果雨一直下到明天

我們就廝守到永遠

RAIN FALLING IN MY HEART

你的聲音仍然深印我心田

世界改變你也改變我在海角天邊

RAIN FALLING IN MY HEART

你的諾言雖然沒有實現

愛是雨點落在昨天永不放晴的纏綿

who is with me...

2005-01-15T21:11:00.000+08:00

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening, but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
Cause nothing's going right and
Everythings a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Oh, why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah
Yeah

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you.

work it out

2005-01-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

todae reached home ard 2pm..to get prepare to go gym. this was my second time to go..still haven overcome the mind barrier that pple will look down on me..so i dun dare to carry weights there...haix..

420pm..met Keong and went to Tarwin's hse to 'pick' him up. and from his hse..we walked abt 15mins under sorching hot sun to go the gym at National Stadium. enuff of a work out sia...we chatted and they kept talking abt muscles and bodybuilding..i jus wanna keep my bod fit..nothing else...couldne be bothered..

reached there to see many muscles bulging was an eye opener...pple were carrying weights and they look so cool~ i had a feeling to runawae..but still stepped into start working out. i started with the bicycle..and shun bian see the surrounding whether got pro or not. tarwin and keong went to do those muscles building stuff..

okae..caught up with the faith..i decided to do some station workout and found them quite fun. really..i took many struggles before i wanted to try.i tried here and there..and keong pushed me to the limit. i did a lot of abdominal and arms one... i took intervals of rest and keong challenged me to do those 'high' level..i rejected. even though was suan by him..i dun care.. really..i couldnt overcome that barrier..

tarwin's fren came- zicong (i think i spell correctly) cant believe he is same age as us. and he look super the fit lohz!gosh!! wel...things went on till 730pm where we decided to go off... hmm.. they were showing each other's body in the toilet and gosh..the zicong one is very... jaw dropped!!! im not a gay anyway, so dun think crooked!!!!

tired sia...after dinner with keong..and i happened to see my parents eating at the same place..so sat with them to eat...now super muscles strain.. i feel so difficult to type..but im determined to go gym more often..well..abt those high level training..we shall see....

Freaks!!!

2005-01-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

im on freaks todae man... it started with a normal dae. hao and me were studying at level 3. progress was good.manage to finish my econs. went for law lec..my second cds lec.. so u can see how long i din go.. quite normal...like any other sch dae..

was so bored cuz hao and his fren zifu were abt to sleep..so i called keong and he was alone in canteen. went to meet up with him and had great time... went to TM after that..shopped ard..bought a new hand band and chain..but im going bankrupt soon!!!

we chatted a lot, joked alot..see a lot of funny things on bus... was already super shagged..and amelia told me ms lily lim last min was unhappy with our online draft..goodnesss lohz..tmr deadline now then come and say..stupid her..she is the worst and unfruitful teacher i ever knew..me helped amelia to find some format. thank God steffi posted a link during our first discussion online. it did help. and wella..she finished it.. i also finished my itinerary homework for TTO..drag going TTO tmr. got to read my notes..

oh ya..took some new photos..go my webbie see k?

normal day

2005-01-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

its really a normal day to go lesson all day..nothing much happen..
except i reached sch in bus, not in cab!! Yeah!! get to know a fren in cds- finally!! His name is Kai Jun, my course senior- very nice person!!!
Erm..went out with Siok and Cynthia todaey. First time in my life..i went to cut my hair...went ard shopping. and took a number of photos with Siok. Wad to say...she is my Affair in sch- Qing Fu!! haha... shh..dun tell anybody..

tmr got to sch to study with hao..super tired sia..jus finished a four page report for commskill..now all brain dead..super...yawnz...normal day...

sianzz...

2005-01-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

todae woke up late again.. got to take cab. SUPER SIANZ LOHZ!!!! its been duno the how many times le.. wadever... as long im not late for lecture... its Bis statz tutorial..wad else? sianz...

anyway..during lunch time, went to 6 floor with hao and found out i got shortlisted for interview. Shucks!! I dun like it lohz. i dun wan to do it. man...got to wear formal..gosh.. ms lily lim walked past too and told us to meet her at lvl 5 to meet her for briefing for journal. worst! asked us to go find a room for ouselves. rubbish!!

alright...went to meet up with Siok, irene, jeekeng and mingshan to go macroecons. Jus to realize as we stepped in...was that violent, rude and stupid lame joker male teacher (duno his name..dun even want to know!) true enuff..a lot of pple was sianz off by him. He took half an hr to explain a page. and was behaving rudely to the studens..talking lame jokes and aint teaching properly. dun like him..forever..wad a lousy teacher he was..u would admit if u attend.

finally 2hrs over this agony..and went for grp meeting. hmm..we were joking so much more and had so much fun. i like it man!! my grp rox!! we were struggling to go for the commskill briefing. in the end only me amelia and lavinia went. alright..my lily din sidetracked a lot. but most of the time i was worried of that..... journal by fridae & interview tmr...man oh boi!!

waited at library.walked with james a little and reached back to library at 5pm to meet some TPHarvesters. they brought some undergrd ones too. they are real open and fun to be with. enjoy the fellowship with them

chang chin came cuz i called him due to that we nid to go his hse to help mich record her musical.. we were late and we squeezed into bus 8. and i mean SQUEEZED!! haha..keep the long story short..3 of us had a great time of fun and really showing off our talent..hahah..i like it...i jus love to sing and groove!!! hehe... anyway jus reached home..need to rest a little..probably sleeping soon and wake up early to finish the stuff i nid to do..

tired...signing off....

wrong...

2005-01-08T21:09:00.000+08:00

everything is going wrong in my life??? wad am i doing?? since when i put myself in this pit? wad is happening? did i lose myself in such a world where i no longer behave as myself? or this is my true self?? wad is it this time?

i really hate myself now..i shld be in this way? can someone hear me?? can someone save me??
i nid a light..i nid a direction.. God..where are u? i know u hear me...why isnt tere a solution out of it? it has been repeating..i nid to be free.. i long lost that touch of urs..that love of urs.. that embrace which i belong to.. why has it change so much?? God..do u hear me? im behaving like a dead corpse right now..shldnt there be more? why am i losing grip of myself.....y....

isnt anyone there to hear me....

God is GOOD!!

2005-01-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

I found my file!! Give glory to God.. and everything is inside. Meizhen smsed me during econ tutorial this morning and said my file was with Ms Choi. i was happy like mad.. dashed up to her room to hear her lecture. actually she was trying to contact me but my hp was in silent..and i called back. but is the biz school office main line. it was impossible to trace the caller. but thank God for everything.

but the worst came...i dragged to go TTO tutorial. that tutor is very strict and has meaning behind her words. typical of her since she came from the industry. words behind words. she is domineering and sacarstic. she asked me questions which i did not attend the lec. but i gave good answers!! Haha...must have dumbfounded her. we nearly stayed back to finish one of our assignment cuz we din went to find brochures for it. but she let us go still..

but we all cant go. we got to print the address label for our resume envelope. stupid Kinghar...never tell us earlier.. yet we are smart. dun have to re-type..jus nid to photocopy the resume and cut out the address. zoom! pass up to her and rush back home to prepare go swimming... God is good to stall time for me..Hehe

went with tsiuwei and shijie. Chai huat later joined in. din really swim much. much like soaking. but was quite fun to have lunch and did a mini shopping..slack at mac then went for jamming le.
weiming got a new hair cut. shang got a new outfit and ben styled his hair. woah..everyone is upgrading.

alright reached serangoon. overall was a very good jamming. well flowed..everyone improved!! they understand wad i wanted and is reall a challenge for them by adding new song suddenly and staying long in the Spirit. they had never tried before but they were quick in response. God's presence was there.. YEAH MAN!!! Keep continuing REVIVALUTIONIST!!!

finished supper..now at home..tired..bought a new battery (hurt my heart cuz spend a lot of money= broke!!) but is really needed..so now charging and talking to some pple..geez.. God is good the whole dae and forever!!

Thank u PAPA!!

part 3..so now u know

2005-01-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

Now You Know
by Hilary Duff
Album
: A Cinderella Story [original soundtrack]
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In these eyes,
More than words,
More than anything that I've spoken.
As the skies turn to gray my heart's just about to crack open.

So the story goes,
But there's something you should know,
Before I walk away and I blow the ending.

I never wanna be without you.
Oh no!
Here I go, now you know.
What I feel about you.
There’s no running.
I must have been wrong to doubt you.
Oh no! There I go!
No control.
And I'm fallen so now you know.

Feels so right.
Cravin' oxygen
All these truths left me empty.
Will you run?
Can you handle it?
Cause I need you to tell me.
Maybe this is bold,
But I’m hoping you’ll stay for the happy ending.

I never wanna be without you.
Oh no!
Here I go, now you know.
What I feel about you
There’s no running.
I must have been wrong to doubt you.
Oh no! There I go!
No control.
And I'm fallen so now you know.

No I won’t look back when I tell you what I think about you. Yea, yea, yea!
No I won’t look back when I tell you what I think about you. Yea, yea!

So the story goes,
Yea, you already know.
So don’t be a fool and go spoil the ending.

part 2

2005-01-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

6.做一天的你詞:李焯雄曲:薛忠銘

不想不想在被你看輕可是我始終還不夠聰明

在你面前不敢表現不高興

不想不想愛被看清然而決定總是不夠堅定

狠不下心不懂對你任性

為何付出的心都得不到回應一切努力都是零多麼

可惜我還分的清這是同情不是感情

我只要做一天的你讓我用一天你的表情了解你的心情

永遠受歡迎帶一點煩惱的高興

只要你做一天的我讓你過一天我的心情

耗盡所有熱情所有決心還被你否定是多麼不公平

我只要做一天的你讓我用一天你的姓

讓我疲倦的心能和你合併就算是最虛榮的夢境

只要你做一天的我讓你過一天我的心

情耗盡所有熱情所有決心還被你否定是多麼不公平

my feelings now..part 1

2005-01-06T21:22:00.000+08:00

3.假面的告白詞:李焯雄曲:李偉菘

好像缺了一塊再拼不回來

再不存在比空白更空白每一次我想起來

其實你都還在藍色悲哀流過我的靜脈

我不要愛我不要愛可是我離不開

假面的告白不坦白的坦白

你不會愛你不會愛你只愛接受愛

眼睛睜不開看不到未來ㄝ哭不出來

好像碎了一塊再補不回來

再不存在比空白更空白每一次我想起來

其實你都還在藍色悲哀流過我的靜脈

我不要愛我不要愛可是我離不開

假面的告白不坦白的坦白

你不會愛你不會愛你只愛接受愛

眼睛睜不開看不到未來也哭不出來

被時間活埋從盛開到腐壞然後愛從潔白到蒼白從蒼白到塵埃

我想離開我想離開可是我還期待

假面的告白對自己不坦白

你不會愛你不會愛你害怕接受愛

把兩手張開抓不到未來抓不到未來有你的未來

好像碎ㄌ一塊再補不回來

再不存在比空白更空白

每一次我想起來其實你都還在濃的悲哀化不開

wad a dae!!!

2005-01-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

wad a dae i had todae..boi oh boi. first i woke up jus on time like 7.45am to get prepared. as usual lazy and i had to take a cab. It was pouring like mad and i couldnt get any cab down at my block so decide to walk abit further. there i was..it was 840am and my class starts at 9am. i was praying super hard for a cab but none was in view. then suddenly a man popped in front of me, obviously cutting queue. Waited long enuff a cab came..and i saw 3 more persons trying to fight. of cuz who will let it go? i rush into it.

wella... reached at 945am. continuing with the law tutorial. class ended. no explanation was given a chance. LATE! oh gosh...

went to lab to print my POM progress report and i met LCM. had a great time with him! He's kinda of funny..really..and he likes white. this is wad i realized. oops..gtg for lecture. went up to LT 17 for Biz Stats. It was on binomial probability. it is much more easier than wad i thot or learnt in sec sch. okae..class ended..rush to meet mich, haohan, darrenS, melvin, henry, pauline, zengmin, chang chin and lunch. no table..so set at that ceramic thingy. one hr passes fast.. and i got to rush the next klas..

two hrs gone..klas ended. me, jeff, lavinia amelia and mingshan went over the street for bubble tea. wanted to go bedok reservoir or library but wadever...haha..anyway..it was closed so have to go macdonald.

5pm le..got to meet ben and mich to go down to choir prac. i was in library then..haha.. okae so we went down.. talked abt music and had dinner together. Good and fruitful time!! alright choir prac starts. learnt 2 new songs and Brother Jason said there will be an children church singer audition right after it! Man..i was pounding excited and pple ard me tried to cool me down. and i was trying to cuz i really wanted to go. so i went . wrote down my info..sang a wrong note in the song. and results. will know later...

finally get to go home with some choir members cum church cum sch mates. i was searching for my thum drive jus to make sure i have it to amend my resums. but..GONE!! even my file was gone with it. then i realized i put the drive in the file. i was dumbfounded!! jiahui leon and ben stayed with me for a moment wherelse all left. i couldnt find it. i was so depressed. i tried to recalled, called pple and thinking...and come up one conclusion ...left in sch toilet before i left for bubbletea!! oh gosh..i can retrieve the file..but the drive will be gone..oh gosh..wad a day i had. got to retype my resume and cover letter..and lost my drive which cost $60...

wad to do now?? well... jus gonna wait..

tired...

2005-01-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

My hse jus came a new digi cam. So took a lot of photos for my blog and Friendster. and even did a photo journal....wad a drain of energy..

anyway.. jus finished talking to this member..or shld i sae a lot of members are stuck with bgr. Man! im real tired of helping them to solve. Sometimes i jus feel like screaming at them to WAKE UP!! The world wont stop becuz of u and such matter. It does not!!!

Love shld be powerful enuff..but it backfires sometimes..doesnt it? Hmm..i jus feel that pple jus got to stand up strong in times of setbacks....

i also want love right.. nobody knows abt it. i do too..come on..im a human too right? i also have the right to love and be loved.. i hate to see pple of behaving so broken after a break up. they keep thinking they are the worst and the saddest case in the world. if tats the case i would also proclaim im the saddest case..regardless of wadever situation ive been thru..

hasnt recent events show us that love nids to be kept pure and simple? Things of the world are quite simple but due to fallen nature.. it perverts and complicates.

so tell me where is the love?

i'M fReE

2005-01-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

im free!! i have to make a decision to be free. i cannot be where i am right now. i got to start my year right. Yuanqi.. u have to wake up from this world..and start living in the promises of God!!

"Thats right..i have to wake up. ive been sleeping too long. Being in struggle too long. its time for me to run, fight and fly!"

this is how i feel now

2005-01-03T01:46:00.000+08:00

Long Night
by The Corrs

It doesn't really matter now you're gone
You never were around that much to speak of
Didn't think that I could live without you, baby
It couldn't be that hard to live alone
But I'm all, all alone again
Thinking you will never say
that you'll be home again

And it's gonna be a long night
And it's gonna be cold without your arms
And I'm gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights
It's gonna be a long night
And I know I'm gonna lose this fight

Once upon a time we fell in love
And I thought that I would be the only one
But now I'm on, on my own again
Thinking you will never show
you won't be home again

And it's gonna be a long night
And it's gonna be cold without your arms
And I'm gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights
It's gonna be a long night
And I know I'm gonna lose this fight

Lost in your arms baby,
Lost in your arms

But now I'm all on my own again
Thinking you will never show
you won't be home again

And it's gonna be a long night
And it's gonna be cold without your arms
And I'm gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights
It's gonna be a long night
And I know I'm gonna lose this fight
I'm gonna get stage fright caught in the headlights
It's gonna be a long night
And I know I'm gonna lose this fight
I'm lost in your arms baby
Lost in your arms

wads wrong??

2005-01-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

woke up at 9.30am!! Gosh!! If i dun hurry i will miss out the bus for service. Half an hour of preparation has become a talent for me. Wella..reached on ten for the bus to come.

Man..its really a cold morning and i tugged myself at the corner of the bus to studyBusiness Stats. I have a test tmr! Anyway i had a bad cramp that did cause problem to my walking. Went up to choir stage has never been so difficult and of torture. To jump and groove nearly cause me life (sorry for being exaggerated!!)

Pst preached abt Goal Setting which i heard it the third time. As he begin to preach i was recharged to write down the goals, to really sit down and pray abt it. Hmm..good way to start my yr! Alright, service ended...got to serve again. But thats not the end.. went for to cafe to work. Oh boi..i have never been so tired.. Mopping- Cleaning- Serving- Washing- Throwing rubbish- Running...wad else could i meet? It really drained my whole day energy man.

With a headache right now, just finished my dinner..i got to study and finish my project later. I got 2 projects..so im intending to do one each todae and tmr.. of cuz the easier one first...

Stepping into a new yr..its kinda of new.. Really.. u duno wad may come ur way. its a yr of excitement and pain too..i suppose...dun u think that too?? Hmm.. i kinda of isolate myself todae..i duno why lehz..

hmm..being going thru some others relationship problems.. Wads all this bgr at this time? Pple dying and groaning over it.. Shldnt love be pure and sweet? Why love did not overcome the tidal waves in lives? Who could ever comprehend that?

i now this moment decide to find a star in the sky to call my own... at least..loneliness is no longer tinging in the nite...

New Yr!!

2005-01-01T18:05:00.000+08:00

Man.. i really have a hard time to connect to the internet. Keep having problems.
Anyway i jus reached home after a nite of tonning.

Me, small cal, jasmine lim, eliz, weiming, shijie, gordon, daniel, abigail, yongheng, jason and shangming went to city area to countdown. We met at Suntec after some had their dinner, play arcade (me danced para!! oops!!) Man, we had a hard time to squeeze our way to esplanade jus to find it too difficult to have a space there to sit. So ended up at marina square to countdown. We played some games and 3, 2 and 1!! 2005!!!! We quickly shared our resolutions to each other and i could feel that many of us have a strong desire for this new yr. Later, we carried on with Murderer Game!! FUN!!

Slowly everyone was tuned into sleepy mode. And many left, leaving me yongheng jason and gordon behind. We were going to Chai Huat hse.it was 2am then!! And we had a hard time catching cab with pple jumping queue. Ending up we took Nite Rider which took 0.5hrs!! Faster then we thot as we looked at the route map where was like 3 rows of bus stops!!!

Finally we reached his hse and found glenn and lincoln there. We had a great talk and fun and of cuz sleep mode went into its full blast!!

Waked up at 11am. Thanz to Jason with his habit to wake everyone up with his pranks!!! We had fun we had joy!! Haha..i love to fellowship with them in games, watching tv, music and fighting duhz... wella..home at last..im too tired to type anything more..

So wish everyone a Happy and Joyful new yr!!!

New Yr Eve..10 more hrs

2004-12-31T13:45:00.000+08:00

10 more hrs to 2005!! Everything is gonna change.. MediaWorks and MediaCorp will officially combine. Channel i will be become history. Hoping for tsunami to leave this world asap. More challenges for the nation. More relationships will come and go. Many lives too.

Who can grasp wad the future holds? Is not by any human understanding..
wad do i hope in future?? hmm..i wanan make so many wishes of desires:

1) BV audition for me to get thru
2) Write more songs
3) Make more TRUE frenz
4) More $$
5) New phone
6)Stronger walk with God

there are still quite a lot but i jus cant think of it right now..hmm..man..2005..wad do u have for me???

dazzling moment

2004-12-31T01:56:00.000+08:00

wah..im super tired and my stomach is feeling super unwell

just came back from CL Zone Thanksgiving nite. I won the Most Punctual Member in the CG award. So i have to treat a few pple dinner. But its really a fun enjoyable yet heart-warmth moment in my life. it at least it ends up the yr for me

Charmaine did preach a good short msg. 2004 has been a tiring and i would sae not a very good yr for me. many things ive let go, did not treasure or disappoint.
but there are also good moments with my members and knowing more pple?

wad do i hope in future? i do have a lot of worries..and i tell u is alot. But God is faithful becuz He has given me another chance in the new yr.

tmr will be the end of yr..are there things i forgot to say? i dun think so right..hmmm
a pat on my shoulder to say. " Yuanqi..let go and let God.."

2004-12-30T15:38:00.000+08:00

Music Of My Heart
by N Sync
Album
: Music Of My Heart (Single NO.2)
Submitted by
: Melissa M.
Corrected by
: jordana

You'll never know what you've done for me
Put your faith in me has done for my soul
And you'll never know the gift you've given me
I'll carry it with me
Through the days ahead I'll think of days before
You made me hope for something better,
And made me reach for something more

Chorus:
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Helped me hear the music of my heart
Helped me hear the music of my heart
You've opened my eyes, you've opened the door
To something I've never known before
And your love is the music of my heart
(Music of my heart)

You were the one
Always on my side (always on my side)
Always standing by (always standing by)
Seeing me through
You were the song that always made me sing (made me sing, made me sing)
I'm singin this for you (singin this for you baby)
Everywhere I go I'll think of where I've been
And of the one who knew me better than anyone ever will again

Chorus:
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Helped me hear the music of my heart
Helped me hear the music of my heart
You've opened my eyes, you've opened the door
To something I've never known before
And your love is the music of my heart
(Music of my heart)

What you taught me
Only your love could ever teach me
You got through when no one could reach me before
'cuz you always saw in me
All the best that I could be
It was you who set me free

Repeat Chorus

...Is the music of my heart...

simple blog for a new year

2004-12-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

i jus want a simple blog.
its good to have very nice one..but i do no want to complicate myself..
simple is also a beauty..most impt is the story that i write for ur right??

anyway..never go sch on thurs as per usual..later would be the CL Zone Thanksgiving! It will be awesome. looking for time to pass asap so i can get to spend some time with the zone members.

it really presses me to look back the past 4yrs that i have been thru. its has been toil and fun too. I changed a lot..din i?

many things are rounding up for the end of yr..it really keeps u reflecting ur life.

wad have u done lately in the past one yr? Has it been tiring? Has it been fun and fruitful?
are there things yet to accomplist? are there things u yet to say?

time is too short...

2004-12-29T00:35:00.000+08:00

had a very good dae todae..went to sch for test. Its like chicken feet lohz. Anyway..i really had a great time in sch with my project mates. They are fun pple to be with. At least i get to make some new frens in sch..so im very glad. As usual we went for commskill facilitation..and that kinghar jus went on with her own jokes.. Lame it man!!!

after that we went to finish off some minor projects..luffing all the way then. Oh gosh..then i had to rush down for CG thanksgiving!! I was already late by then. All of a sudden, jasmine called me to buy some A5 papers for Charmaine's card!! It was so difficult to get thru the crowd at TM and i had to queue so long and reached so late with hunger.i was totally pissed. but wad to do?

reached marina with james and we started the steamboat. it is so fulfilling with all the fun and food. it was really a good time with the cell grp. i felt true love!!

it taught me something that really treasure every single moment. life can be too short. jus lik the recent Tsunami that had taken lives all of a sudden.. u really never know it...

[New]

2004-12-28T09:37:00.000+08:00

this is my new blog..i am still trying very hard to do a nice and personal template..so can someone pls show me how to do it?

Anyway its going to be the end of yr!! Wanan sae a big thank you to all pple who has been sowing into my life!! I really appreciate that and hope u have a great year ahead!!!